My business is MINE... Not yours!

I never ask for your help.
Even if it may look like i need it, i dont want it from you!
I like dealing with my own problems.
Yeah, i may ask for advice now and then.
Yeah, i may want some comfort at times.
But stay out of my business.
My business is MINE! Not yours or anybody elses!
Keep my name out of your mouth.
I dont give a damn if your just lying to get out of trouble.
I dont want my stuff out in the open!
Do you think you could fully understand me and my ways, thoughts, ACTIONS!?
You can never get in my twisted mind.
Its too complex for you.
Do you wonder why i keep to myself and my old habits never die?
Things that shouldnt have been done to me happened.
It doesnt really seem like ive went through things.
But i did and you know what??
I survived!
The person i am becoming one step at a time is about to unfold.
But the BS you just started?
That person is dying... Very slowly now.
THANKS ALOT!
Im only going to tell you this once.
MY BUSINESS IS MINE! Not yours!

Do you know what love is?

Can you honestly stand up in my face and say that you truely know what love really is?
I doubt you, of all people, know what it truely is.
You, who, crushed hearts in the past for your sick lust.
I believe you want someone to love...
Thats why you keep coming back...
Like a lost puppy...
I am done with you.
Simple as that.
I tried and tried to be there for you.
To love you...
But you didnt understand the word 'LOVE' and how it worked.
You just used it in a way that worked for you.
Thats all.
What is your goal?
Is it really Love? Or is it Sex and Lust?
Love isnt about Sex nor Lust.
Im not really sure about it myself.
But all i can tell you is that love is sacred.
You share its magic when you find someone you love to the fullest.
Everyone in the world have soulmates.
I believe you do too.
So tell me...
Do you know what love is?
Cause right now...
We never had love.

One of a Kind :)

-Are you 5'0 like me?
No.
-Are you a female who has Light reddish- brown hair and have dark brown mysterious & creative eyes?
Heck No!
-Are you someone who reads for FUN and appreciates books?
Doubt it.
-Are you someone who gets like, $80 and spend it on books & Tacos?
Heeeeeeeeeck noooooo :)
-I like dreaming of things that are not natural but awesome. Do you?
Neeeever.
-I am most definitly AWESOME. Are you?
Umm maybe, but not like me :)
-Soo like, i am light skinned, 16, smart, mature, short, girly at times, im hecka lazy, and i am a black female woman yet have italian and indian in me. Are you?
Uh nope!
-So do you suck a love?
Maaaaaybe!
-So tell me. Is your name Ella?? :)
Heck nooooo!


We are all like snowflakes. There can not be two of type same.
-Sooo are you one of a kind, like me??
YES YOU ARE :)

I am myself... My pain... My problems...

Why does it seem that you want to be everything that i am? Do you think im perfect? Do you think that im prettier then you? Or do you think i just have my own way... That i have people wrapped around my little finger?
I am just an ordinary Teen. I go to school, just like you. I want a good education, just like you. Hell! I want to be something and make my adoptive parents proud to claim me as their daughter, just you.
I see you, everyday. I smile. You smile.
Yet my smile is fake. Everything about my mood is fake. You think i have the most perfect, little life. No. I do not.
I've been through things a young person like me shouldn't have been through. You could almost say that I've been to Hell, had a sip of juice, and came right back. I had to grow up. Beyond my age so I could be there for my sister. So i could be the very thing my parents, real parents, wasnt.
So no. You can't envy me.
Not my looks, personality, talents...
No, i wouldnt want this life on you.
But you know what?
Life is getting better for me....
And soon... Pretty soon...
Life will get better for you as well.
With love <3